Maze...

Lyfs intricacies r gettin more intricate with d passage f tym.

As a child i wz so convinced dat our journy z lyk  a similar maze we used to solve- wer a prsn at one end has to go to d othr end- & 'GOD' being 'we' knowing d rite path will lead us to d othr end safely ,holding our hand.But as i  moved on ,I encountered d BLOCK ,agn a BLOCK & den agn BLOCK ,BLOCK ,BLOCK.........dejected,i wondered y God ve left me & not showin me d way?Walkin half heartedly,i saw d open door.........in dat sense of excitment i thought i won d castle,little did i knew der wz another BLOCK.

This is all lyf-HAPPY but SAD,SAD but HAPPY.......in any way itz still gud.... :)

But den it occurred to me,  'what if' a 'timeout' is declared b4 reaching to an end,viz.,b4 achieving our goal.Alas! i found no ans & apparently nobody had .Dan y wasting our tym chewing over.

Time,z to untangle d tangled  because lyf as we kw z already enigmatic-why complicate it more.Simply n'jy d journey leaving behind d questions wich indeed ve no answers or mayb ve answrs but d ans f wich ,i guess,will least matter.

God,i speculated,may ve not ushered me to d rite door bt definately wz with me if nt holding my hand but standing with me to gv me d strength & wit to turn back & explore d othr way & nt to regret d path i ve takn........coz though i ve encountered d block but in dat wee tym i learned somethng new,i saw somethng diffrnt,i met new pplz or who kw if any of dose wrong path will tell us d purpose of our being alive.

So y bother fr d thngs wich we havnt got,jst luv adoring d things wich u did got.

Take lyf eze,smile a lot,do wateva u want 2,say wateva u feel lyk...........& neva utter a word  fr wat u ve lost or fr wat u cn ve bt u havnt got as famous saying says "what z done cannot b undone".

Stay happy,u ve got jst 1 lyf.Dun waste it by living upto othrs expectations.Stop livin lyk wanna be's.Love urslf.Be urself.Pursue ur drm to itz lair & alwyz fight fr urself & ur rights itz neva unfair.....

STAY BLESSED...:)

rAiNdRoPssssss

I read somewhere “I love walking in rain because no one can see I am crying” and  I wonder  how someone  can even think of crying in rain. What I have experienced is that at the  touch of the rain drop my all miseries and mental trauma just  flew away, away to a place where  I didn’t knew until I came back to my room. Every wound was healed as if it was never there; every pain was gone as if I never felt. Just in d same way the trees n shrubs got wiped out by the rain water and got rid of particles of dust and pollution an d now are exposing their true color. And those subtle shades of green gave me undefined sense of peace to my eyes and my soul. It was d sheer delight and I was completely enthralled by the alluring ambience.

All I did was to feel the drops touching me with mild force-a force so calm, so smooth. A moment later I found myself dancing in d rhythm of rain, music so soothing that it can gave solace to anyone around. I was laughing, I was playing, I was shouting like anything.

I was drenched not only by water but by all the long gone memories of my childhood, my teenage …………..my friends, my family and all peoples who are not with me, but apparently somewhere in the corner of my heart. I remembered the time we laughed together, cried together, played together and fought together and as I retrospect I got a long stretch on my face and a gleam at my eyes.

RAIN made me feel like as if I got a life back, a life I loved so much. I felt ecstatic and this time for no reasons, I felt pampered even though there was no one to pat my shoulder……………

As expected, Rain stopped and as I came downstairs to my room, I was filled with new energies. Energies to be happy for tomorrow  and the days that will follow energies to fight with my troubles with real valor.

Hence I realized the keyword for happiness is to seek it. Happy peoples are healthier and live longer. So we should find happiness wherever we can: life’s so small to live with resentment and grudges. For a long and happy living have zeal to live life with all vigor and voraciousness…

Passe

               Aaj asa laga jase kuch piche ha chut gaya.

            Ek pyara sa ehsas,kuch pane ki aas.

            Kuch kar guzarne ka hosla,sab kuch pa lene ki lalsa.

            Bachpan ki aathkhelia,nani ki kahaniyo me apna sapna bh jee lia.

            Maa ki god me sar rakh ke sona.
            Papa ke kandho me to jase aasman bh chu lia.

            Seh nai paye the pair me lagi chot ka dard.
            Maa ke aachal me roa lia tha sar rakh kar.

            Aaj jana dil pe lagi chot se wo dard kam tha magar.

            Kash aj bh roa pate me aachal se lipatkar.

            Bachpan me choti se khushi ko bhi seene se laga liya , aaj asa laga un khushiyo ne
            alvida hai keh diya.

            Aaj jab mud ke dekha to jana bahut kuch hai chut gaya....................

            Har rang bharne ki koshish me lad rahe hai zindagi se

            Aage safar hai bahut lamba,rasta hai thoda kharab.

            Chal rahe hai fir bhi aasha ki kiran liya,

            dhudne us duniya ko jaha nani ki kahaniya lete jati thi kabhi kabhi

            Jaha sabke dil me tha pyar aur khushiya thi beshumar.............

Untitled.......

Well i tried hard but i dont think i can dignify this blog with 1 or 2 words............so itz "untitled"


anyway...........................At last touched the final milestone for being a graduate & be an engineer.............BIGTIMES huh!!!!!!!
So frnds enjoy being the seniormost hope u have fun n best of everthing in this epilogue..............make d most out of it dun let d roads untravelled,words unsaid & d things undone to regret in future.

The journey has been astounding with betimes and hardtimes as well................everything today feels like a dream.
Every1 is saying itz lukin like as if it was yestrday when we came over here but for me evrrything was slow n swift and i did realised each passing day in which i cried,i laughed,i learned ,i appreciated,i felt low ,i felt high.......................................n all things whether good or bad,desired or undesired,welcumed or unwelcumed has been amalgamted to give me a beautiful treasure called MEMORY...to cherish till doomsday.....


We all have got best frnds ,best roomates, hostelmates, classmates, batchmates..........etc etc over here.
Drenched with nostalgia ,things we'l  miss for sure flooded to my mind............
There will b a lot of pplz around but no1 to listen to our dumbest worries ,craziest dreams or wildest fantacies.
Nights will come in a usual way but no night long chats n teasing stuff.
The FB account will b there but no FOCUT tym for hour long gig.
Birthdays will come n birthdays will go but no frnds to give us birthday bums though.
Sunday saturdays will go nowhere but no random plans to go somewhere.
No roaming listlessly in a cold air...........................Jeez the list seems endless..........n still i guess evry1 z waiting for more goodier stuff........ :):)



This poem i want to dedicate to all ,itz the way i felt at some point or othre n apparently most of d pplz out there..

We felt ignored ,we felt blessed too
We felt happy ,we felt sad too

We giggled naughtily & shed tears too
We helped deliberately & sometimes went selfish too

We Got sacred & behaved bravely too
When lonely sum1 was der to put us out of blues

Felt d luv n d hate
& sometimes the jack of all trade

Sometimes we were in the seventh sky
& Sometimes even the flour beneath denied

Som epplz appreciated n some just bitched
& we became we from all those twitch

We faced failures ,we made faults
We learned so much ,from all assualts

We made good frnds & good foes
& a good family out of our homes

The time to go is near now
many things in pipeline but to accomplish them how......


So make d hay while d sunshine
then don't regret n say...."this could have been mine".....

stay blessed.....

Silence...

           Today as I walked by the corridor I stopped beside Sakshi mam's room, in a fury, how can she b so careless hanging out ,eith her room unlocked.I stepped inside "emptiness" in d room told me "she has gone baby".

          As I was coming to my room,I halted by Poonam mam's room.I wanted to knock......but somebody gave me the look 'why you are knocking therez no1 in'..............Oh yes!sorry i forgot.....

          As I came out of my room I expected a sincere smile smile form Swati mam as i always get but dis tym i got none.

         Last night i was feeling hungry thought "chalo Rohini mam se kettle le k ate ha"..............blimey!but she is not in her room she is at her place far away from me.

        I am feeling insecure wanna share my insecurities,I tried calling Shivani mam's name but the words chocked in my throat coz I knewed she'l not come.


       My guiter untuned who'l tune it now, Anujha mam already left.......................................


      And there is an endless list of things in which I miss each 1 of u seniors......ROHINI MAM,DIVYA MAM,MONIKA MAM,SHAKSHI MAM,SHEHA MAM,SWATI MAM,POONAM MAM,ANUJA MAM.......

    Everywhere i rummage in the hostel..................I expects to see u,I expet to listen ur voice,I expect your cool caress,I expect your advice...............................but everytime my anticipation fails...

  Each and every thing we do in d hostel someone or the other is expecting ur presence dear seniors....



         Feeling heavy at haert as if it s a chest congestion...........itz going out guns............finding it hard over here seniors just got used to u all...........missing you more than expected.

      there so many peoples in the hostelwho r with me,theres so much of noise also.....but,in that commotion "dead silence" secretly came,mocked at me n said,'your loved once have said Goodbye' & I was left all alone in the crowd thinkin who'll fill your space now........inspite of knowing the answer no one will ever can...



A message is circulated ,the best and the worst thing in life is ATTACHEMENT,attachments are bare essential.I guess its not attachement that hurts its being ACCUSTUMED to the one you love hurts....................................Thats why its rightly said,"ADDICTION OF ANYTHING IS BAD"......

 miss ya...........
 

GOODBYEZZZzz...

      I guess as soon as we start speakin ,den jus after sayin MUM-PA,MUMMA-PAPA,MON-DAD or sumthng else our parents or rather evry1 in our surroundin teach ud 2 mumble "goodbye" but 2da m left wonderin wats so Good in Goodbyes dat dey wants us 2 speak dat word so early.....................................................
                          (so dat we can ve a prelude 2 harsh reality f lyf i guess,bt newa).........

      Well,I alwz convinced maslf dat mah pain z sumthng datz solely mine & i suld not share it with ne1 & dat wz such a convincing dream dat i got confused with reality...........coz eventually wat tym taught me z dat der r certain pain ,dat we share for sure................................& itz d pain f goodbye m perceivin rite now.

      Lyf ve itz astoundin wayz full f surprizes & very less predictable.How sum1 such a stranger bcums an acquintance & den ur reason 2 laugh.Well.I blv notin z fortuitous ,evrythng z predestined.But den y wen ur relationsp matures 2 sch a point dat it seems congenital dat v same person leaves u with all dose tears in ur  eyes............??????
                   
                       "autum cumz n summrz go
                         flowerz begins to blow...
                       
                         pplz cum n pplz go
                         eyes begins to flow...

                         neither u nor i may
                        y dey cum n y dey go"


I suld say as d world sayz......"LYF MUST GOES ON"....
but yeah......try hard as u may d lacuna created in ur heart remains as it is.

I want to say dis to all d pplz i luv n who luv me..................

          Enchanted  & dazzled by ur presence & overwhelmed by ur support ur absence is makin me crestfallen n queasy dat a sudden urge 2 stop u has taken over mah heart.Apparently , i noe dis z quiet n unexplained,unjustified n voracious wish  coz u ve a v charmin future ahead waitin fr u n m v happy for u dat  u'l b stepin forwd to experience a beautiful change.....


          but happiness in most f d cases z tainted with despair............here itz a Despair f Departure...

Thnx 2 all fr accepin n endearin me d way i m........may u bask in d glory f success......

  here i say not goodbye coz u n i phir milege chalte chalte......

STAY HAPPY
STAY BLESSED
STAY IN TOUCH TILL DOOMSDAY.........

Happiness

  Since wen we r born we r searchin for happiness..................bt i guess dis search z constant n nobdy finds a FULLSTOP for it..
  As a student f primary class we alwz wanted to grow up to b called as a senior student coz we thought it'l b more fun bein big den as we wer in senior class we found ourslves in so stressed dat we den waited for our colg lyf to get stared so dat we can b released from all dose pressure & hav a blastful lyf in colg ..............d freedom n stuff.........now wen we r in colg we r anxiously waitin to head in a corporate world n who knows wat we'l b wantin in future.......
  In dis whole journey we alwz find dat happiness z forward in our future but wat i ultimately realised is dat Happiness z movin Forward to our Past... 
   Today wen we hav all dose freedom,realeasd from all dose scoldin n stress f IIT n EEE type f ghost dan y, still we r not happy n at peace???????????gradully wat i came across with z dat d happiness we hav left in our past was d most beautiful n pure n divine...........d peace f mind, d innocence f heart .......small scoldin f Father ,teasin f Brother n wat counts d most z d Carin f Mother.
   Everthin had happiness within it f wich we wer completely unaware at dat very moment........bt m sure ecstasy of it lingers in every1 heart...

   Alas!I wonder y derz no airway or railway in our past so dat we can hav all dose happiness parceled in our presnt....

   So in dis thoughtful process i found Happiness z sumthing dat cannot d pursued itz sumthin we hav rite now......Today wat we all hav z heartaches n ignorance bt still in dis game of trauma we still hav luv n friends n beauty f nature to cherish n live a joyfull lyf...

   "IF DER R 100 REASONS TO B SAD DEN TRUST ME DER R 1000 REASONS TO B SMILE"

   B optimistic n pragmatic n neva let ne1 hurt u.......derz joy in evry nook n corner.........so make d most out f it coz kya pata KAL HO NA HO.......




STAY HAPPY
STAY BLESSED.... :) :)