Silence...

           Today as I walked by the corridor I stopped beside Sakshi mam's room, in a fury, how can she b so careless hanging out ,eith her room unlocked.I stepped inside "emptiness" in d room told me "she has gone baby".

          As I was coming to my room,I halted by Poonam mam's room.I wanted to knock......but somebody gave me the look 'why you are knocking therez no1 in'..............Oh yes!sorry i forgot.....

          As I came out of my room I expected a sincere smile smile form Swati mam as i always get but dis tym i got none.

         Last night i was feeling hungry thought "chalo Rohini mam se kettle le k ate ha"..............blimey!but she is not in her room she is at her place far away from me.

        I am feeling insecure wanna share my insecurities,I tried calling Shivani mam's name but the words chocked in my throat coz I knewed she'l not come.


       My guiter untuned who'l tune it now, Anujha mam already left.......................................


      And there is an endless list of things in which I miss each 1 of u seniors......ROHINI MAM,DIVYA MAM,MONIKA MAM,SHAKSHI MAM,SHEHA MAM,SWATI MAM,POONAM MAM,ANUJA MAM.......

    Everywhere i rummage in the hostel..................I expects to see u,I expet to listen ur voice,I expect your cool caress,I expect your advice...............................but everytime my anticipation fails...

  Each and every thing we do in d hostel someone or the other is expecting ur presence dear seniors....



         Feeling heavy at haert as if it s a chest congestion...........itz going out guns............finding it hard over here seniors just got used to u all...........missing you more than expected.

      there so many peoples in the hostelwho r with me,theres so much of noise also.....but,in that commotion "dead silence" secretly came,mocked at me n said,'your loved once have said Goodbye' & I was left all alone in the crowd thinkin who'll fill your space now........inspite of knowing the answer no one will ever can...



A message is circulated ,the best and the worst thing in life is ATTACHEMENT,attachments are bare essential.I guess its not attachement that hurts its being ACCUSTUMED to the one you love hurts....................................Thats why its rightly said,"ADDICTION OF ANYTHING IS BAD"......

 miss ya...........
 

GOODBYEZZZzz...

      I guess as soon as we start speakin ,den jus after sayin MUM-PA,MUMMA-PAPA,MON-DAD or sumthng else our parents or rather evry1 in our surroundin teach ud 2 mumble "goodbye" but 2da m left wonderin wats so Good in Goodbyes dat dey wants us 2 speak dat word so early.....................................................
                          (so dat we can ve a prelude 2 harsh reality f lyf i guess,bt newa).........

      Well,I alwz convinced maslf dat mah pain z sumthng datz solely mine & i suld not share it with ne1 & dat wz such a convincing dream dat i got confused with reality...........coz eventually wat tym taught me z dat der r certain pain ,dat we share for sure................................& itz d pain f goodbye m perceivin rite now.

      Lyf ve itz astoundin wayz full f surprizes & very less predictable.How sum1 such a stranger bcums an acquintance & den ur reason 2 laugh.Well.I blv notin z fortuitous ,evrythng z predestined.But den y wen ur relationsp matures 2 sch a point dat it seems congenital dat v same person leaves u with all dose tears in ur  eyes............??????
                   
                       "autum cumz n summrz go
                         flowerz begins to blow...
                       
                         pplz cum n pplz go
                         eyes begins to flow...

                         neither u nor i may
                        y dey cum n y dey go"


I suld say as d world sayz......"LYF MUST GOES ON"....
but yeah......try hard as u may d lacuna created in ur heart remains as it is.

I want to say dis to all d pplz i luv n who luv me..................

          Enchanted  & dazzled by ur presence & overwhelmed by ur support ur absence is makin me crestfallen n queasy dat a sudden urge 2 stop u has taken over mah heart.Apparently , i noe dis z quiet n unexplained,unjustified n voracious wish  coz u ve a v charmin future ahead waitin fr u n m v happy for u dat  u'l b stepin forwd to experience a beautiful change.....


          but happiness in most f d cases z tainted with despair............here itz a Despair f Departure...

Thnx 2 all fr accepin n endearin me d way i m........may u bask in d glory f success......

  here i say not goodbye coz u n i phir milege chalte chalte......

STAY HAPPY
STAY BLESSED
STAY IN TOUCH TILL DOOMSDAY.........

Happiness

  Since wen we r born we r searchin for happiness..................bt i guess dis search z constant n nobdy finds a FULLSTOP for it..
  As a student f primary class we alwz wanted to grow up to b called as a senior student coz we thought it'l b more fun bein big den as we wer in senior class we found ourslves in so stressed dat we den waited for our colg lyf to get stared so dat we can b released from all dose pressure & hav a blastful lyf in colg ..............d freedom n stuff.........now wen we r in colg we r anxiously waitin to head in a corporate world n who knows wat we'l b wantin in future.......
  In dis whole journey we alwz find dat happiness z forward in our future but wat i ultimately realised is dat Happiness z movin Forward to our Past... 
   Today wen we hav all dose freedom,realeasd from all dose scoldin n stress f IIT n EEE type f ghost dan y, still we r not happy n at peace???????????gradully wat i came across with z dat d happiness we hav left in our past was d most beautiful n pure n divine...........d peace f mind, d innocence f heart .......small scoldin f Father ,teasin f Brother n wat counts d most z d Carin f Mother.
   Everthin had happiness within it f wich we wer completely unaware at dat very moment........bt m sure ecstasy of it lingers in every1 heart...

   Alas!I wonder y derz no airway or railway in our past so dat we can hav all dose happiness parceled in our presnt....

   So in dis thoughtful process i found Happiness z sumthing dat cannot d pursued itz sumthin we hav rite now......Today wat we all hav z heartaches n ignorance bt still in dis game of trauma we still hav luv n friends n beauty f nature to cherish n live a joyfull lyf...

   "IF DER R 100 REASONS TO B SAD DEN TRUST ME DER R 1000 REASONS TO B SMILE"

   B optimistic n pragmatic n neva let ne1 hurt u.......derz joy in evry nook n corner.........so make d most out f it coz kya pata KAL HO NA HO.......




STAY HAPPY
STAY BLESSED.... :) :)